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I am f20 and been on and off exploring with someone (m21) for a little bit

He does want to go further and honestly I do too?

I have given him head, we have touched, showered together, been rather intimate but I always stop it before we go to any vaginal penetration

I've been told by so many people to not let my first be a throw away or to be careful.

I've been having some very sexual dreams about him that leave me hot and bothered for hours on end.

I want him and I trust him. He's never once tested boundaries

However im also not sure if im romantically attracted to men and don't want to lead him on?

Im also worried I'll do it and regret it. Or he'll get what he wants and leave me high and dry.

Its an odd battle between knowing and wanting this but also anxiety and fears. The what ifs drive me crazy